Saturday, February 24, 2007
Where is your ultimate DESTINATION? For me, its definately HEAVEN.
Yellowren's production, THE DESTINATION concert was terrific. Though i admit i wasn't very eager or anticipating for this concert, but it prove me wrong. I enjoyed myself, as much as i enjoyed casting crown's concert. Well done!
Its been four years since Sis xue qi's death. This is the first time Chee kong openly speak up about this incident and testify it to the congregation. It was quite a big thing in church at that point of time. He testified during the 2nd song and the "tap" just continue to flow....and flow... till the end of the concert. Pastor Mong yee wrote a song for xue qi and her grandmother. She backslided for 6 years and its because of her grandmother that she came back to God again. It just speaks to my heart how God uses Chee kong and how he pick himself up once again from those shattered pieces. We are humans. We tend to question God during the times when things are just so unexplainable. But its faith that brings us through the unbelievable, its faith that brings miracle. Now Chee kong's parents are saved, xueqi's family members are saved..and he is blessed with a partner. Only God can do the miracle.
I was at the alter call towards the end. Shedding tears.. not only for myself, but for someone else.
Dedicated to you
Though i may not know whether you will read this post, but i just want to let you know. You might not say it out, but in case you don't realise, you have already backslided. You have lost the passion to serve God, the discipline to come to church and i doubt you even pray at home. Soon, you will find all those you are working hard for, meaningless. You don't have the peace, the joy that God can give you. Working hard for everything in life don't get you anywhere. You will have the same excuse once you step into the working force. I stand in front of the alter, crying. God hears. I can cast all my troubles, heart-brokeness, weakness to Him, God bears it all. But i cannot stand in front of the alter, raise that hand up for you to renew your relationship with Him once again. Pastor Mong yee says "Even if only you alone were in this earth, Jesus will go through the same suffering just for you".
To be frank, i couldn't sleep two nights ago. I had this sudden fear of death. Regardless of illness, sudden death or accident. Would i want my love ones to suffer together with me? Do i still need someone elses love for me and feel loved even for that short period of time before i go?
I realise, its not how long u live, but how well you live. I want to live everyday with meaning. Even certain thing, i want to enjoy doing it and not be forced to do it. When i was young, before i came to know God, i went to Australia with my mum, together with her friend and her daughter. We stayed over at some auntie's place. One night, they were chatting and came to know she knows how to predict the future by looking at one's palm. I remember very clearly that she told me i had a short life span of 25 yrs. She even told my mum's fren she will have a son. True enough, not long after she came back to singapore, she is pregnant.
I did not enclose this to anyone before. As a christian, i know i shouldn't believe in all these. And i believe God has His own timing. Even if i have a short life span, i really hope i can live it meaningfully. I may not go through certain parts of life like getting married or even have my own children, but at least i know i have lived it well..
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