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Monday, October 27, 2008



I always always feel so good, so refreshed after church. Its like guiding me back to where i should be and how i should feel towards certain things in life. I wonder what will i be like if i were to leave church.. Nothing good i guess..

Life has been boring. Studying every night. Paper after paper. Seeing the same old bunch at farrer mac, talking about the same old thing. And whats worse.. studying the same old few modules. I seldom got to see my parents at home.

I think its God's will for me not to get the barclay's job. Now, i can spend more time with my mum. Will be going KL after exams to help her during the 4 days exhibition. After which will be going vietnam to help my parents in a trade fair. And then, the long awaited taiwan trip. =)

Pretty excited about my post exam activities. Haha.. But at the same time, i'll miss 4 weeks of church. =( i think this will be the longest time that i'm gonna miss church.

I have to meet up with the girls soon before i fly.. I miss hanging out with alvin n gang too! Exams exams go away!!

Have been looking for jobs.. I'm quite confused. Not very sure what i want.. Will have to pray abt it. =)


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Sunday, October 19, 2008



Never depend on your past anointing for the present battle

Learned something new today. Sometimes i feel guilty for not paying attention during service. No matter how much i wanted to bring my attention back, my mind just drift off somehow. But i'm glad i caught this today. =) We christians always have someone out there to fall back on, our heavenly father, Jesus Christ. Many times, we prayed and wants God to answer our prayers fast. we want God to be consistent to answering our prayers, but have we been consistent towards God? So what if in the past i did many things for God, so what if i'm a leader? I am at the same position now as the unbelievers if i choose to leave church and be on my own.

So what if you claim that you still believes in God. Whats the big deal of just believing and not wanting to go to church. No sacrifice, no renewal. If we stands the same chance of going to heaven, then i might as well live my life just like anyone else and just tell the whole world i believe in Jesus Christ. why do i need to force myself to wake up early on a sunday and don't allow myself to slack and give excuses for not going church, right?

well, have been studying the past few weeks. Its getting boring. A few things happen over the weeks. Had some problems with the taiwan group, but i'm glad its solved. Celebrated huizhen's bday last night. Haven meet the whole group for very long. I do miss the fun i always had with them. Hehe... most of us had fun play darts last night. At least its better than seeing them drink.. =)

Going through some emotions recently. Getting quite impatient and unhappy about certain things. Don't know if its just me being sensitive or what.. Sometimes i wonder if i don't see things so seriously, probably i won't feel that way.

Went to the Barclay's interview. Its my first interview and i'm quite excited about it. However, i think i did badly. I was so nervous and was not offered the job on the spot. Guess i'll not get it. Which means....no extra income for my taiwan trip.


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Wednesday, October 8, 2008



It was only recently that i realise how "unprepared" i am for things that are most prob to happen when i start working, when i start to meet more people. A little scolding or a little unpleasant words that people say can push my moral down and cause me to ponder and be bothered about it the entire day. Not only that, i can never hide my emotions. Never.

Had quite a long talk just now while studying. How i wish i can do it. Somethings that i should have done long time ago, but worried that i might not be able to take it. Not that i have gotten over the entire thing, not that i am really ready to start a conversation and be the "man", but i think it has dragged way too long and the akwardness does cause uneasiness among the group. Which i do not wish to.. Yup, there are questions that are not answered and i do not wish to know the answers. But hongyi was right. It has dragged way too long that there is no point bringing up the entire thing just to close the chapter nicely. But as i was saying, whatever i did was just to protect myself.

If i could control myself, it could just have ended 5 years ago. It boils down to how emotional i am. Literally allowing the feelings and emotions rule me. But of course, i too wish i could act as if nothing has happened. I really hope so.

I don't want anything to affect the state of my emotions now. Because i feel i'm doing fine. Seeing friends suffering because of relationships does reminds me of the past. And i'm glad i'm out of it. well...hopefully one day i will have the courage, to be the man!!!

Yup, just to side track. I think the boys are not treating me as a girl anymore. And the worse thing is, they literally tell me straight to my face. Grrrr.....And.... Y all taiwan hotels do not have 2 single beds in a double room. Y are all double beds!! But... i'm still looking forward to the trip! Just that i don't really like the idea of sharing a bed with someone. Its not a chalet!! I need good sleep!!

Studies have been on schedule. Everyday a chapter. Enjoyed my dinner with the girls tonight. Trina!!! better send me the photo soon!


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Thursday, October 2, 2008



Some updates..

1 sept ~ Michelle's wedding
Michelle's beautiful moments. I wanted to get more pictures before i post. Seems like the photos will take ages to reach me. Hehe.. She is beautiful issn't? And the naughty bunch decided to keep all the wedding menu till the last one who gets married. Slowly counting.. haha.. but now, She's the first.


I'm indeed glad to see nihui that day. It has been years since i last saw her. She is so pretty now. I think its the power of love. haha.. Really looking forward for the next gathering in november. Waiting for our dear organiser, miss ying ying.


23 Sept ~ Jaecia's birthday

Its a weekday. She is having her block leave, so she decided to make full use of her leave. Went to BISHAN, yes, BISHAN to have dinner. Though it was a small group while most of them couldn't make it, but i'm sure she enjoyed herself. Went down to lebar for a drink and i realise the 2nd level of lebar has live music. Quite cool.. Probably will drop by one of the weekdays to hear them sing again.


26 Sept ~ BBMFT bbq @ Caribbean

We took hundreds of photos that day. Most of us were there. Its the last semester for most of them. Time past real fast. Its the end of 3 years. Its our study period as all classes have ended. Which means we won't see each other in school anymore. Its getting kind of emo though. The frequent class skipper, me, now feeling bad and guilty. Regret not attending the last MC class. But there will be another bbq session after our exams(i hope). Its amazing how the big class can be so close.


The night continues as hongyi and i left early. Went to meet his friends @ RVP. I was only attracted to this event because of the openning, DJ Yukun. But by the time we manage to get in, Yukun stop spinning already. The Guest DJ wasn't fantastic. After much persuation, Alvin came down ard 1 plus. The crowd was crazy. At the end of the night, all of us was drenched. Germaine was damn high after 2 cups. It was Boy's birthday that day! And he had fun, though it was a trance event. Haha...




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Wednesday, October 1, 2008



I was reading vanessa's note on facebook. Today is the 36th batch last day of school. While reading, if i did not fail IF, this would probably be my last day too. Damn emo, but i'm glad i still have one more semester to go. I'm unwilling to let the school days off! Yet, there will definately be some people whom i'll miss. I'm grateful to all who have impact my life. People whom i've worked with, be it projects or doing the pushcart together, or even been out for coffee or even the aquantances. I'll miss those familiar faces in school in jan 2009. *sad*

Had been a happening week. Had dinner with jaecia on her birthday, class bbq at eddie's place and also RVP. Went to KL over the weekends to attend a wedding. Yup... And tmr my parents are going to bangkok. And yup, Bee bee has to start studying again.

Have been looking out for jobs recently. Dying to get a job. However, my mind is not fixed. I'm not sure if i should do internship. I'm not sure if i should just apply for a full time job and see what is there to offer. I'm not sure if i should just apply for a part time job since i've got just 2 modules next year(if nothing goes wrong). I'm indeed very keen on being a buyer or merchandiser(which the pay sux). And i am not sure i would take up a buyer job if its gonna pay me way below it should for a degree holder. Well well well....all the "not sures" definately going to drag till i'm back from taiwan in december.

So glad and looking forward to our trip. Hmmm...shouldn't i be more worried about my studies first? Pushcart @ junction 461 is officially closed. I brought back all the unsold ones. I really need to arrange them nicely b4 i really get busy studying. And i need to clear my waredrobe asap! Its bursting!!!!


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