Exams have been drawing everyone away from their friends, but draw the usual study group closer. I've not seen the UOL people for quite some time. Cindiie! i miss you! The usual study group have been meeting everyday. I see con, yiwei and hongyi everyday! Yet.. we still have so much to talk. Never fail to have supper b4 we leave home.

Tired as i am. Yet, my heart is still as fragile. It issn't easy to concentrate on my studies when people around me are affecting me time and time again. Was emotionally affected twice today. Yes, i may have accepted the truth, yet i still feel uncomfortable. I didn't want to do certain measures to refraining me from knowing anything, yet i don't want to have fluctuation emotions.

My dad will call me all of a sudden and said things to irritate me. Sometimes i wonder, do all eldest child suffer? Whatever shit will come to me first. Haiz... I really need a break after the exams.

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With the other well-dressed "celebrities"

Me and the hand made snake. Done by ting chun.

My favourite pic of the night. Look at tingchun!


- Le Bar -
Joy, fun and laughter.

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How i wish people will treat me more like a girl....

1. To walk me to the car
2. To walk me up the my place
3. Not to leave me behind
4. Give me a treat once in a while
5. Give me a pat on my head when i look blur
6. Cheer me up when I feel down
7. Give in to me even when i'm being unreasonable at times

And many more... Sometimes i get so frustrated and wish i am not so close to the guys. Who will understand? Probably those who are in my shoes.

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It has been a fulfilling weekend. It has been sometime since i'm touched and feel so renewed and refreshed after both HOF and sunday services. Ruth is right. Our pastors never fail to speak the right messages to encourage us. Guess this is the reason why i'm still in evangel. Not because of anybody, but because of HIS word. It has also been a long time since i prayed for someone, face to face. The new HOF series is good. I just couldn't hold back my tears while i was praying. God is good. =)

Saturday was a day of cleaning and clearing. I was washing and cleaning the house since i woke up that afternoon. Had some quality time spent with my mum and my aunt is so nice to come over help us clean. While having dinner with them, my aunt was telling me about marriage. Never get married if you are not prepared to sacrifice more than your other half. I think people need to be mature and mentally prepared before they get married. I admire my mum. And i know the source of her strength is definately from the Lord.

Have been studying recently. IF is tough... Trying to plan a trip to bintan after exam. A real good rest before looking for jobs. Hope can graduate on time. =)

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事情也过了一短时间。我不能说我已经完全放下，但渐渐的开始面对现实，说服我自己“这段爱情以不属于我，不可能回来了。”

theory is not equal to practical. 过的了想法那关，但过不了心理那关。心还是会痛，觉得很可惜。说没未来，但未来也不是完全的在我们手里。nothing is impossible with God. 简单的说，爱情已经淡了。我不可否认这个事实，也只能接受。

爱情真的那么脆弱吗？在一起久了感情真的会淡吗？有一点恐惧，有那么一点怕。现在的我真的已经适应我的生活了吗？也许吧。

Last project. After this i'll be studying for my exams already. One semester has ended and the next and the last will come (hopefully). I still enjoy studying, but i know reality is reality. I'll still need to go out to work. Some say old, some say mature, but we're all stepping into the working world. But before working, i'll give myself a break. A full 3 weeks (hopefully) of holiday. I just need to leave for awhile.. a rest.. to have some fun...or probably a last gathering before we go onto our separate ways. Quite excited though...

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Marketing test was al....right lah.. With the amount of time spent, i should say it was mostly common sense. Well, after the test, it was like a great relieve for most of us. Went town with weisiang, raymond, keith, hongyi and jezlin for fish & co. For some reason we ate at 4 plus... then wait till 9 plus for our movie. Others left after dinner and leave hongyi, jezlin and myself hanging around in town. Con and winston came to join us for movie. bucket list. It was al.......right also but definately not worth a weekend price.

It was like a culture or a norm for our group to have supper after movie. So we ended up at tong shui. Ya.. Again!! Its like no where else ya? Jezlin was laughing the whole day. She seldom join us.. so prob thats the reason.

It was my brother's birthday on sunday. So no plans made. yet, my brother went out with his friends. Left with me and my mum. Nevertheless, i spend quality time with my mum. Dinner at holland V, yogult ice cream for dessert. I'll grow fat lah with my mum around. She'll ask me to eat and eat. Then we went to fetch my bro and proceed to the airport to pick my dad up. Talked to my mum about my plans after i graduate. She is quite supportive about my idea.. And i'm glad. Sometimes i just need an assurance from her that i'm going the right track. I really love my mother. =)

I need to redo my room. Certain things need to rectify.. I'm excited. However at the same time, i doubt i'll get approval from my dad. The only solution is to pay for everything. Well, the aircon man delayed his trip down. So means i have to wait till next monday. Its getting hot these few days.

Jus got back from town. Sent richard to far east for his haircut. Its the first time i met him in sch manz.. Caught the vanity point with hongyi. Its quite a good show. Cuz we both have low expectation about that show. We just watch cuz we gt nothing better to do. Met damian, winston and zoe at pool junction b4 heading for rochor tao huey. Tired.... even i had enough sleep.

Last 2 weeks of lesson before we are off for our study break. It seems like its just yesturday when semester started. And no joke, i'll graduate soon... end of the year. Time flies. People changed. Everything changed.

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