1 paper down. Today's paper was a flop. Guess i won't do well for finance. I jus hope for a pass or a credit...THATS IT! For all the late nights and the early mornings! Was totally shocked to see the paper jus now..

Couldn't get to slp at all at 2am.. Its the usual exam mood. Too excited. Got up, prepare myself, made sandwiches and packed my home-made drink and off to susan's place to meet hongyi. Stayed there to study till 8.30 and drove recklessly to school. What a day... I was so tired...Till i almost wanna give up halfway while doing the paper. Haiz...

But still....Thanks for the few messages wishing me all the best and "good luck". Thanks to sherlyn and jacia.. She has her 1st paper too! Hope she will do well... Phew....one down...3 to go.. When will this going to end.... Arghz....

I miss going out.. Miss hanging out with yee and gang.. Boo~ But first, i need to get well. My voice is still so manly. Jus found out tat alot of my friends are sick too.... Think its the weather. I think i need 2 rest... If not, fever is on its way... Cyaz...

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sick sick sick.....y am i sick during exam period. Haiz....... My throat hurts. My cough is unbearable. Where is my mummy.....

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I got this bottle of biscuits from susan today.. She is So sWeeEeT! Heh...She saw this at breadtalk and bought it for me cuz there's my name in it. And she bought few bottles of liang cha for us cuz some of us are sick... Thanks suzie~~

I officially announce "I've LOST my voice!". So sad... I knew it coming but i juz couldn't prevent it though i drank lots of water. Think the germs juz keep spreading among us. Studies was alright... But was not well prepared for friday's paper. 2 more days to study.. Jiayou bee!

Was studying at KAP mac when i saw kelvin and sharleen. They join me and my friends to study at farrer road after that.. It was actually quite crowded at mac as there was a soccer match at 2.30. Man U won! Last min goal...Hehe...

Thought could go for a holiday... But still.. it was too late. Probably next time. Jacia called to say she is able to go, but kelvin and wenjie going guangzhou.. So maybe next time. Haiz... Feel like going for a holiday after exams.. but i'm on tight budget now... Very.. Especially if i'm not working when school starts.

Bad throat and cough...haiz.. May God heal me... AMEN! ZzzzZzzz......

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I'm indeed blessed again by the message Pastor Marion preached. It once again confirms that I'm called to be in this church. Regardless of whether i do have friends in church or not, or whether i hav someone to talk to after service, I will never want to miss the blessings from God. Thank you Lord for speaking to me.

Forgive the unforgiving. The message had spoken to me to forgive even those who are unforgiving. We tend to blame others or even get frustrated with others who do not forgive. But what about ourselves. Can we forgive those who do not forgive us?

Thought i will be alone this morning but i saw david at the entrance. Sat and talked to him.. After the service, i went down myself, waitin for my mum outside the toilet. I was thinking to myself, am i so pathetic? But it didn't really affect me at all...because I'm blessed and i know my purpose. I'm different... In the past, I'll be affected or even feel sad abt it.

Some thoughts . . .
Was queueing in the toilet when i saw a lady limping out from the cubicle. She gave me a sweet and warming smile. It just stuck in my mind and i can really feel the peace and happiness in her heart. Though she had problems with her legs, i think its a long term thingy, but she still can give me a sweet smile. A normal person, who can walk and talk freely might not be able to do this. Problems and troubles will jus fill their own mind that they have forgotten to smile and bless others..

My throat hurts... Couldn't really sleep well. Will be cooking tonight. Hope a good dinner will makes everyone feel better. Mum will be going KL again tmr. They are having exhibitions there during the weekend. Think dad will go over on thursday. My paper is on friday.. Hopefully things will be fine. pray that i won't fall sick during this exam period. =) God bless...

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I was so blessed at HOF last nite. How to stand firm in the Lord?

Its something alot of christians lack. They came to blieve after few services and follow-ups, but slacken after a year or two, when they think the world is a place better for them. It may also be people whom you hang out with in church that causes you to feel disappointed. If you are not mature enough to handle the situation, you will end up leaving church or even to the extend, not serve God.

If the joy of the Lord is your strength, then nothing can take this relationship away. Abiding in His presence is one of the keys to standing firm in the Lord. Its not easy to stand firm with Him because we are humans. I was talking to yee on our way home yesturday, i feel so blessed to have someone who share the same thinking as me. You have grown up yee.. I feel so happy for you. We both learn not to care about many things and just cast all things unto the Lord and believe that He is there for us all the while. Holding onto the faith.... Even if the road is tough, we will always stand for You Lord.

Had supper with alvin and junyuan at geylang last nite. The "tian ji porridge" is superb. yummy... I promise my mummy that i will bring her there one day. I miss her alot. She has been to malaysia for the past 1 month... And due to my studies, i don't have much time 2 accompany her also. She will message me from KL, call me whenever she is back. I feel so touched even though its just a few mins call or a short message. I miss talking to her.. but i promise to go Amore with her after my exams. Hehe..cuz she also wanna jian fei. Bleah...

Tot i could see carine last nite. But she din came down...sObz... I'm feeling sick... Probably will go home early tonite as there is church tomorrow. Good day everyone... God bless

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I have been sleeping alot these few days, but not the right time. Studying the dry modules like HMT really can kill. Everyone jus can't seems to concentrate. Past few nites have been Pocky nites. We had 10 packet of pocky last nite! Heh...

I'm so tired. The weather have been changing so drastically. Hopefully i won't fall sick. Oh ya.. I've decided to go back to Amore once my exams are over. It could somehow occupy my weekends abit. Heh..

I'm looking forward to Friday. Looking forward to HOF. Probably going geylang for porridge. yee on?! with vin and junyuan. Its such a small world. I've been studying with susan whom actually was one of my senior's sister. She knows junyuan, kunhan etc.. So qiAo. And hongyi knows trina too.... Alvin's sister.

Hope to finish more HMT questions tonight so that i can switch back to finance in the weekend. I miss good food. Spiderman 3 is coming out.. Hate to know some new shows are coming out, don't know why, but i jus hated it.

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Some updates....

It was planned ahead. She only knows that we are going ktv that nite. Thanks to our surprise visit kelvin. haha... He came in with the cake (as planned) and surprised her. We sang to our hearts content till 2.30am that nite. Happy birthday!! She leads the "22" mark... next will be me.. =(

I met sharleen and kelvin before going KTV. Kelvin is nice enough to treat us ichiban. The food is good.. Though i was not v hungry. Hehe...






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I feel i'm much stronger this time. God really do hold back all my tears, even how hurt i was. I learn to take things lightly and look at a brighter side. On another side, I was hoping that i went clubbing with my friends last nite.. so that i won't come to know certain things. But i know i am escaping and God won't be pleased. =)

Didn't have a good appetite today but manage to eat my dinner. Shopping today was not bad. managed to touch abit on MAB today. Hopefully can study more tomorrow.. Will be celebrating jiahui's bday tomorrow... Hopefully everything goes well and we'll enjoy tmr nite.

Its friday and its Church day! yeah!

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I had a wonderful nite with sher & car last night in town. Though the traffic was very bad and i tell myself i'm not goin to drive in during peak hours anymore. Haiz... But its great to meet them once again. I still see car in church on sunday but i won't have the chance to see sher. =) Its great hanging out with them. We had NYDC and i had to empty my wallet with all my money.. Sounds sad rite? Car treated me green tea ice cream and we sat at our usual spot at mac cafe lido. Shucks.. We forgotten to take pictures...

Morning class was fine. I manage to wake up early this morning. Hehe... i was on time for class but was feeling quite restless. So, i decided to skip PM lesson and went shopping with Avril. I had a good deal...Thanks Avril. We Shop, eat, chat... Like wad girls will do. Meet jez and yen for awhile b4 heading back home. AND YOU KNOW WHAT, i din pay so much for a carpark before. $11.30! I was so shocked! ArgH...no more driving to Orchard on a weekday afternoon! Heart pain...

Read yee's blog. Thanks yee. You have been an encouragement to me too.. Your presence in most of the outings was a blessing. I'm really glad that you are back to church with me... Its really my desire to see you grow in the Lord day by day, depending on Him and serve Him wholeheartedly... I'll be strong. Definately. You too have to be strong and do well for your remaining year. Anyway, my name is Koh Bee Hui...not Koh Bee Bee...hahaz....

Should be staying at home tomorrow. I really need a rest and study for my papers. 2 weeks more....haiz... I feel i'm falling sick. Face burning.... Shall blog again soon....

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Last Prices and Market test before exams period!!!! yeah..... I wan a HD! pray for me ya? I need to save. Have been spending far too much.... God help me to save more for my trip.... =)

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The collage of pics at Sakura

The night didn't end there. We headed to Dynasty for KTV. But its close.. Wierd hor they close on Good Friday. Raymond joked that they celebrate good friday... Paid $2 for nothing and decided to go fairway KTV near my house. They changed the sofa recently. Nice... We paid less than $10 per person. Good deal on a public holiday. =)

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Look at Yiwei's stupid face...wahaha...

Hongyi & me

This is our usual study place. I'm really sick of macdonals now. Looking forward to tomorrow's service and buffet dinner with my secondary school friends. Hopefully more pictures to upload...

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Its really really really...and I mean REALLY hard to live everyday without God. It seems like He is always there for you to pray to, there for you to lean on, there too when your heart is weary and pain. Its hard to continue to journey without Him.

I was reading sherrie's blog when she mentioned about her previous experience and how much she wanted God to take her home. It seems so real but it may sound silly too. Sometimes, i wanted it too....Especially when whole lot of things just happened to you, it may be something small, but it just hooked onto your emotions, mingled around and cause your mind to ponder and lead u astray. No matter how strong you are in the Lord, sometimes in a split second, if you don't know the way back, You'll just ended up to be just another victim.

It was a bad day for me. Facing the pressures from my dad, pressures from school work. Must all these keep repeating till i graduate? Sometimes i just want to give up. Why isst so hard for him to understand how i feel, what i wan... One like that, the other also like that.... give me a break!

Anyway, heck. I was studying yesturday when i saw wenhong at west coast mac. Its been years...i think after secondary school. I haven been seeing him. Anyway he looked the same and amazingly, he is studying at SIM. UOW. Chatted for awhile before i headed back to study. Sometimes its the study period, that makes me feel more relax. It sounded crazy as i told my friends i enjoy exam period, cuz i know after my papers, I'll need to go back to work again.

Its just part of life. Trials and temptation makes us grow stronger everyday. I believe i will....

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James 1 : 2-4
"Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith developes perserverance. Perserverence must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything."

I was badly affected 1 hour before G12 tonight. I feel sad...empty. Feeling real down and really having doubts about myself. Am i doing something silly... doing something which will not bear fruits in the end? I even question myself.. Should i stop doing all these, stop praying?

I enter matthew's house with a heavy heart. Wanting God to touch me. Indeed the message was just right for me. I feel weary... Tired about the things around me as i feel nothing has been changed. Even if i pray.. Things didn't turn out well. Am i to perservere on?

Endure Bee... I need to endure till the end. Though i may not see the big picture right now, its a test of patience. There are times where u can tell yourself "endure, you can do it." But when things start to drag.. weeks after weeks, months after months, its really difficult for you to move on. Its just so taxing and tired because of the progress. Its just like paying for your insurance every month when you do not know what is prepared at the end of the period.

I feel much better. Will continue to move on in my life... Praying.... Exams are near... Will start studying soon. =)

Had fun yesturday with junyuan and alvin k-ing. Haven't been singing with them for a long time.. But they are still jokers. I just can't stop laughing... Guess they work till siao already... Rubbish all the way.

Will having a class gathering this friday. Sqs-4C gathering. But there are always people from other classes. But we are still close though...Heh... Looking forward.

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Back from project and some chill out with kelvin and wenjie. Suppose to meet jacia too. But she went to do project. Was kind of tired... Tomorrow will be another day of rushing projects again. Haiz....


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