* j o y left her prints @ 2:13 AM

难道我是那么的不受瞩目，那么的不重要吗？心里的不舒服，不开心，都默默的藏在心里。有时候，我真想飞的远远，什么都看不见，感觉不到。这样，我们之间可能只会留下开心和幸福的回忆。因为这些回忆对我来说很重要，但也已经越来越模糊了。

我是那么的不重要吗？在你心里，我还有分量吗？我不要你的回答，不期望你因该镇么对我。“对不起，我爱你。”这句话可能就可以表达我现在的心情。

* j o y left her prints @ 1:08 PM

1st paper down! It stress the whole out of me for this paper but i'm not sure if i can do well. 2 questions, 25% each. The idea of juz to answer the questions in essay format, 4-5 pages each question will jus make me DON'T feel like doing it. And its true, after the 1st question, the 2nd question was like half past six only. I didn't have the energy and the right mind to analyse and write it out anymore. Now i can understand jaecia's problem. I think SM is another killer module. Pray that i'll be able to pass or at least get a credit. =)

Over the weekends at aranda chalet was another celebration with the same old group. The place is big. Same old thing, alcohol after alcohol. Didn't tried much on the bbq food though.. Had a complete hangover (ya, even without alcohol) the next day after church. I had a long sleep and that help me turn back my bio clock, to sleep early and wake up early.

Gotta start my investments tomorrow. Will have ample rest today before starting tomorrow.

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* j o y left her prints @ 3:32 PM

The email somehow affected me. It seems like my hopes are gone. Maybe hongyi is right. I shouldn't anticipate it so much.

I didn't want it to affect me cuz i told God that it needs to be His will, no matter how much i wish this "hope" of mine will come to pass or not. Because i know i won't be happy if it issn't God's will.

There will be a 2nd chance. However, it doesn't depend on my decision alone.

* j o y left her prints @ 5:31 AM

Hof last week was great. I'm glad to be back on friday. No more lessons now. Everyone is busy studying for their upcoming exams. Life has been the same, i guess its because of the "busy lifestyle" now that cause me to push certain things aside and just concentrate on my studies.

I think i started too early. Feeling quite lethargic now. I'm done with my ER notes, now studying for investments. I really need to strength to go on, till my 1 November. And after that, i'll be going over to KL. For how long, i don't know.

Nothing much to blog. Life has been a routine nowadays. Looking forward to this saturday. Hopefully my prayers will be answered.

* j o y left her prints @ 12:37 PM

Some updates...

Went to shop with caijun and wendy on tuesday. I spent the whole day shopping at bugis and far east plaza. Kekez....I've always wanted to go bugis. And as expected i spent way beyond my budget. Well, i agree with everyone that i really spend alot. I need to control... I told them that i will not be visiting spree for 1 month and will not shop till my exams are over!

BoOo... I spent the most that day. $130 Gone. Yet, i'm happy with my stuffs. I bought quite alot though. This is something great about girls, with $130 we can bring home alot of stuffs. Hehe...





* j o y left her prints @ 2:06 PM

Went to the office this morning. So tired..but i force myself to wake up. Heh...Did nothing much but went 2 study with hongyi and later jaecia in the late afternoon. Haha... i really think its not productive to study with someone u know. ESPECIALLY girls. We just keep talking and talking. Girls can really gossip.

Nothing much to update.. think i'm feeling better today. Going shopping tmr.. Excited! heh....will update more tmr...

* j o y left her prints @ 12:53 AM

Have been very busy the past few days. Investment projects have been driving all of us crazy. Stayed up for 2 nights jus for this projects. Haven been sleeping well, i guess its because of the sudden change of my sleeping habits. But thank God its over now. All projects are over. Now i'll just slowly blend myself in to the "study-mood".

Went for night class last night though i'm very tired. Yet, i feel like going out. Sort of in a PMS mood. Couldn't pay attention in class. Didn't want to join the others at punggol. Was deciding to go home when hongyi msg me. Well, since i've got nothing to do, i went to hav supper.

Was sort of down last night. Don't know why. Don't know what is bothering me. I think its everything. Usually i would jus pour out to hongyi, but i jus couldn't bring myself to say out what i'm really thinking. Met carine outside zouk. Chat for awhile and i decided to go home.

I miss HOF. Though i still attend sunday service, but somehow i miss going HOF. Its wierd not going church on fridays. And i really miss having someone giving me a "pat" on my head, a hug and i miss making someone laugh. Most importantly, i miss my genuine smile. Perhaps my decision is right. Perhaps this decision will change my life.

我已近没在想了，因为我已经惜身了我的希望，来换取他的希望。

* j o y left her prints @ 12:25 AM

Anyway, so much for being emotional on a saturuday night.

I have been Amore-ing since saturday and now my leg hurts. Haiz..but i like to after effect from a workout. I feel fresher and "lighter". Wahaha...i know thats stupid.

Got my first AE spree. Yup! And i should say i'm happy with my stuffs. My 3 tops, 1 pouch and a clutch. Yeah.. 2 more sprees to go.

Investments is killing me or rather the whole group of us. 2 more LM, 1 more investments and 1 more ER lesson to go. And soon its our breaks for the exams. Stress.. Gotta start studying next week with jaecia. She is making me stress over exams. BUT....I'll definately give myself a break before i mug on my exams after friday. Ktv sessions, dinners, movies, meet ups...bla bla bla..

Just caught High School Musical 2. Its a must watch. I think Vanessa Hudgens is pretty.

* j o y left her prints @ 12:22 AM