Happy birthday my dear sherrie. Celebrated her birthday at modesto last night. I give myself 2 hours off from study just to be there for her on this special day. Hehe... I love you sherrie! We'll meet up to talk soon.

I was quite emo-emo this morning during service when pastor marion speaks about rapture. A sudden thought of the good old days in church where everyone is serving God faithfully. My prayer for them slowly came to a stop. Friends around me are drifting apart.. and i feel really sad for them. The thoughts of the past church camps, the amazing races, the gathering after heart.sports, the hang out after church. I miss those good old days @ SCGS. Back then, we're still so naive, so pure. When we grow up, our mind slowly fill with the things of the cruel world.. more responsibilities.. more uncertainties..

I was convicted. I want and need to get back to praying for them. Its only through prayer that my heart will continue to be soft for people. Thinking back, how much i was willing to do for them just to get them back to God. I feel so ashamed now. I don't even dare to speak up to them or rather ask them to come to church. Afraid of being rejected, i choose to bypass those opportunities. When Pastor Marion prayed for Zach and Lionel just now, tears just welled up. Someone whom was so inspired by the holy spirit can leave God.. Singing the songs that Zach wrote "I pray" and "cover me", the lyrics touched my heart.

Many things have happened in this 1 year plus. Mindset has changed, lifestyle has changed. I am starting afresh without him. My consistent prayer and persistent effort failed after so long. I am not sure if i will give him a smile when i see him on the streets. The "act-as-though-we-don't-know-each-other" sucks. From full of anger... to "because we've not been talking, so be it" kind of feeling. However, i really hope he will come back and serve God once again. Because only God can give you the true happiness. Even if i may not know when is the day or will not be there to witness it, but i will be smiling and be happy for you.

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Anyway, since i did not study the whole afternoon as i was busy walking around with jaecia and subsequently, busy taking pictures. I decided to give myself a day break from MC. After HOF, i went to meet them @ vivo. I went all the way down to vivo and there was a change of plan. SIAN. went back to the same place again..... Haiz....... Can we go to somewhere else???

Apricot & Shop with Joy had a good time @ Junction 461 in August. In September, we'll move to pushcart 4. Hope to see you again.. New stocks coming up! Stay Tune!

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Went to keppel Marina. I suggested to go there as i've not been there. Nice view.. good place for couples. But i went with hongyi & con... Wrong hor? but ok lah...they are nice..make me laugh that night.

Celebrated xiaoli's birthday on tuesday night. It was a last minute decision. Had a good chat with the ying and xiaoli. I do miss the old girls.... I'm tired of books and projects.. haiz...



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Weixiong celebrated his birthday @ Lebar a week ago. I guess this is the first time where we'll have dinner b4 the drinking session. The food was good..just that the service sucks! Anyway we had fun!

After MC submission, i continue to rot in school everyday to mend my booth. Its an achievement to see the sales coming almost everyday. Although this is just a trial, but i'm happy because its the 1st time that i handle everything myself. Of cuz, not forgetting from the help of alvin to maintain the website. Hehe....

Was terribly sick yesturday!! I wasn't feeling well on friday, so i went back early to sleep. Plan to be at the booth on sat as my partners say there's crowd. However, i left school early as i'm meeting a buyer. Its quite fun to meet up with your buyers. They are rather young. Haha... i think the one i met on sat was like 16/17? Hehe... too bad.. its not wenjie's day. I think the one alvin saw was better.

Went to watch death race. i was really tired but i should say its a good show. Towards the end its kinda exciting. yup! walking aimlessly, we went to eat ice cream. It was still early then.. So we decided to give some friends a call. True enough, keith is the most "on" one.. He came down 1 hour later.. With his friends.. Raymond came to join us too. It was fun as it was not planned. Impromptu. haha..

Anyway, yesturday i went for a dinner. It was like a 7th mth auction dinner. Its quite an experience. Haha... Its an eye opener. They manage to get the martel @ 1288. well... i can sense another drinking session..

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Its good to have some catch ups with friends whom u seldom meet. Met jiahui and huizhen recently and our conversation never ends till one commented "its late, we need to go." Shuqun days will always be the period of time that i will miss. The laughter and teasing among one another.. Everyone was genuine. Less problems back then.

Time has changed. Hongyi was right. We change because the circumstances around us change too. People turn prettier, can dress up better, able to carry themselves better. Some changed because of what had happen to their life. Messed up and do not know where and who to turn to. Some living in denial. I can't help but to feel sorry and sad for them. Yet sometimes, i dun feel appreciated as a friend. I did my best to be someone whom my friends can rely on. I try my very best to be there.

Listening to the heart revolution disc that ting chun forwarded through email. It never fail to encourage me. When was the last time i went for the Festival of praise... I miss the feeling. Looking forward to HOF tomorrow.

Projects and tests coming!!! Give me a break...

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Had a Pre-National day celebration with them @ le bar. It was quite a fun night as i saw a few of my classmates there..surprisingly. Haha... They were quite "hard core" that day when most of them were quite gone at the end of the day. Its nice to meet them once in awhile. Zhen commented that i look different...probably because of the late nights. Hmm...i need to tune back my time so tat i can wake up early.

Pushcart business is still alright. I'm quite happy but i believe could do better. I'm trying to source for better goods and a cheaper price. We have a regular customer!! haha.... Alvin get to know a new friend. He better thank me for that man...Hee... Hoping to go to KL soon.. Speak to Alvin and hongyi just now.. We're planning for the year end trip. Everything is yet to confirm.... But i'm quite excited about it. =)

KTV with alvin and his friend David just now. Issn't good to not feel anything when singing.. Esp those sad songs. I should say i'm feeling better now. At least i won't feel sad while singing jay chou songs..



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