Just realised i have not upload some of my pictures. Was organising my pictures jus now for my new "shop".

Went winebar with jaecia last friday. Both our phones died on us. haha.... I almost plan to go home cuz she was super duper late! Hongyi came to join us after she complained no one drinks with her.. So yup! But hongyi was busy entertaining people (as usual) while i decided to take out my camera to take some pics. Saw weiliang that night too. Here's the pics..


Got an irritating lady kept talking to us. Even when we take picture, she squeeze her face next to me. Argh! Cause all of us to be awkward.

25 June was my mum's birthday. We celebrated on monday as she has to go KL the next day. A family picture with my maid and my cousin who has the same birthday as my mum. Hehe... Look at my maid..i think she is very cute. She's just one year older than me!!


The online shop has been driving me crazy. Yes, i got the interest. But its tiring...

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Didn't go to work today. Was very tired, so i decided to stay at home and rest, at the same time clean my room and prepare myself for the new semester. Its sad to see my IF notes once again. Hai.....But hopefully another year in SIM will prepare me better for the working force.

Met cindiie last night. Its amazing how we always have topics to talk about, and never once did we pause and don't know what to talk about. haha... Finally i understand how she feel...Its not just you okay?!

Sometimes i feel happy because i don't have a bf now. Don't have all the shit to worry about, being emotionally unstable. Yet, i can still be angry and still will have quarrels with friends. Its amazing how friendship works sometimes.

Looking forward to the weekends....

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Seriously, i'm getting tired of planning and planning. Because somehow or rather, things won't be smooth. Been quite irritated recently. Be it how much i wanted to be a good friend, to be there for my friends when they needed me, in the end, the results are disappointments.

My mum is encouraging me into doing this business. She don't mind investing and supporting me. But sometimes i think she is thinking too highly of me. I just want to try out and see if this could work. Its a trial. Its fun and i could learn how to manage a small business.

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I was walking to singpost to pay my summon when a thought came to my mind. I'm contented with what i have. But am i contented with who i am?

Yet when i was back to the office, i logged onto facebook and saw a friend attached and my cousin's bf had proposed on her birthday. How sweet. I told myself and everyone that i'm glad that i am single now as i have the freedom i want. But sometimes, i just couldn't convince myself.. I prayed every night that God will give me the strength & courage to go through everyday and to comfort me & assure me that the best will come.

I am not desperate. I too don't want to step into another wrong r/s or be in "grey" period with someone again. I don't think i can handle such emotions again. Path will only get tougher each day as we grow up. If i insist in going in my own way, i doubt i can handle the outcomes.

Its difficult to find someone you love and at the same time loves you back. Love breaks your heart, yet it can also mend your wounds. I had a long talk with alvin & xiaoli on friday. I didn't expect myself talking on behalf of alvin. But i think i truely understand how he feels, why he would want to make things so ugly. This is the way to protect yourself, to protect that little heart of yours from getting hurt again.

Seriously, i'm not happy with who i am now? There's alot of things that i've did to make me feel better, temporary. I miss the old me, having the desire for souls. I do not have the courage even to speak about God infront of my friends. I'm trying to get back to my quiet time every night and not finding excuses for not praying because i'm tired.



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Have been physically drained. Ermz....not because of work. But have been watching my hongkong series at home over the weekends. It came just in time when i'm super broke.

Decided to take up the starhub job this weekend while my parents go for a short holiday. Another weekend burnt.

I'm dying to swim, to jog. I've put on weight! Oh God...please give me the desire to exercise....

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Decided to look for them after le bar as xiaoli was feeling kinda emotional. Was contemplating to go home or to meet them. Well, as usual, we have to wait very long for our turn to sing. And it was pretty cold up there. Went down to df for awhile. They have female guitarists, which i think was very cool. Witness a fight yesturday. Very scary. Jiayi n xiaoli were quite high. And jiayi was laughing all the way. Finally, I've cleared my name. They kept complaining whenever i go, that night won't be fun. but they had fun last nite.

Poor me... Slept for 2 hours and got up for church. I'm seeing stars now..but will be meeting hongyi for supper. Tired... I need to sleep well because tomorrow will be a long day. A dinner with my classmates before the deadline came. Results on wednesday. Pray hard that i'll clear all my modules.

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