I'm back. again. And now, from vietnam.

Was terribly sick in vietnam during the 3 days of exhibition. And i'm still not well. Have been sick for a week already. I just can't get use to the water, food and weather probably. I stayed in the hotel for 2 full days. Yet, I'm still having my "sexy" voice. Haha...

Planning to rest at home tonight. But, got a msg from hongyi once i touched down. They were planning to celebrate meiyan's bday at keppel marina. So i went down 2 meet the boys and Cindiie was there too!! We couldn't have enough time to chat my dear. We need more time to catch up. After my trip alright?!

You know girl, everyone has their own problems. Every family has their own problems. It aches so much to hear of what you are going through. Its tough, definately, but i'm sure you'll be able to handle it. I'm just a phone call away... anytime k? I love you...

well... after so much of emo-ing during my stay in vietnam, i'm so happy to be back. I was just telling my mum, its really no joke to be a stewardess. Salute Ms Aw!! Called weiyuan, planning to meet for lunch initially but he couldn't make it due to some family matters. Manage to do some catch up over the phone. I guess its just nice to check each other out sometimes, even a short phone call. I seldom meet up with him, but we'll catch up with each other once in a while on the phone. =) I hope he is fine though he sounds so just now.

Thought of giving kevin a call when i'm back. But i guess he'll be too tired. Think i'll call him tmr to check out how is he. I feel bad... Though we don't contact much, but i still feel alot for whatever he is going through. He has to take over his dad now, to be the head of the family. I'm glad he has a good and supporting gf all these while. He don't have a smooth life, he works for everything. Mature and i know he can handle anything that he was tasked to do. I guess thats why i fall for him many years ago. haha... Never regret it. Now, i really hope he, as the pillar of the family, will stay strong. Jiahui & me will continue to uphold him in prayer. =)

So many things in mind. Need to think of how to squeeze everything to my bag. oh my...i saw hongyi's luggage and think of the things that he's bringing... I'm afraid my bag couldn't take it. Because i have the "hiao" factor. haha....

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I'm in vietnam now!! have been sick for the past few days. I think almost a week already. Argh... I feel like getting rid of my nose. Can't stand it...

Well... the stay here is quite good. Its a break for me from the busy city. I appreciate the breaks...but it can be tiring though...haha..

Received a message from jiahui and lingyang just now when i on my phone. My heart just sank.. just like jiahui says, his face still flashes now and then in our minds when we visited him in the airport. I'm feel very bad that i couldn't attend the funeral as i'm in vietnam. I feel pain and sad for kevin. I hope things will be fine for him soon. I know alot of his friends will lend him the support that he needs. As for me, I'll pray for him, for speedy recovery...

Was kind of emo. Was in the hotel these 2 days, resting. Took some medication and i'm feeling ermz...abit better. abit only. A sudden thought of my past while i was lying on the bed, trying to sleep. Saw jay chou's interview yesturday as he was talking about his new song. Yes, the song that i've put up a few posts ago. Alot of emotions, alot of thoughts. Of course i know i shouldn't let this dwell in me. But its still painful to think of that...

and NOW my best friend is attached. Of course i'm happy for him. It also means i have to get use to him having a gf.. Reminds me of how doyle was attached in the past.. Haha.... And of course, mistakes won't repeat itself. =p Not everyone know what i mean.... but those close ones will know...haha....

Alright.. i'm actually looking forward to monday, to be back in singapore. Nothing feels better than home. My bed, my space and etc. Will do some last min shopping on tuesday and meeting weiyuan for lunch if everything falls into place. Hope to meet up with kevin too...but i guess he will be too busy settling his stuff and studying for exams. Well....i wish the best for him... May God heal his wounds and bless his family.

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Just came back from KL. 4 days at the exhibition hall @ KLCC. Tiring i would say. People work at barclays while i work for my mum these 4 days. 4 days without internet, without tv. Sounds like church camp ya? haha... Sales was not bad. My mum is giving me a share of commission. Hehe....adds on to my taiwan shopping spree.

Next stop. Vietnam. Kind of rush.. Was sick on the 3rd day of exhibition. Lost my voice. But i'm glad i manage to help.. Looking at how the salesmen deal with customers, i learn alot. I'm very impressed by how my mum handles people. =)

I feel quite bad towards certain things. Not say i'm at fault, but probably the timing issn't rite. Many things around me has changed. Its something that i cannot control. Hopefully things will be better after i come back.

I miss everything here. I miss the entertainment, the fun. Jus a short meet up with the guys just now really makes my day. Really looking forward to the 26 Nov. There's alot of things i need to do after my trip....alot!

Alright...time 2 rest... =)

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During alter call, i was reflecting my life and thinking how much have i done as a person, fulfilling my responsibility of a person. Have i been living a meaningful life. Reflecting back, i feel everything seems so vulnerable, so meaningless.

I pray that God open new doors of opportunity, for me to impact people's life once again. As a sister, i always think i'm right. Reprimanded my brother for the silly decisions he made. From young, i wanted to help out in homes and do voluntary work but no actions taken. Now he is ahead of me. I feel so shameful.. I want back the drive, the heart for people once again.

Cosmic gate was good. Germaine and tim was quite sian as the music was quite progressive initially. Towards the end was good. Weiliang was there with us too! celebrated des's birthday yesturday. It was a big grp. Totally expected what happened last nite. But still......

Really hate myself sometimes. For no reason, i'll be emo. I guess its internal. I need to handle it myself.

Leaving in a few days time... Meeting jaecia and weixiong later... Others probably will meet them after i'm back from taiwan. =)

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Exams are finally over.. After few months of projects, tests and exams... its finally over. I was telling hongyi probably we'll not be used to it now. Everywhere we go, we'll carry the lappy or books with us. Now tat we're so free.. we might not know what to do.

Hmmm... before i go KL, I'll need to pack my room and meet as many ppl as possible. So exciting. And i had my first meet up with edward and the others for dinner at aquamarine @ marina mandarin. We had buffet at a very reasonable price. Thanks to gretchen!!

Terry is like busy eating and taking pics the whole night.


I think this is the 1st photo of the 3 of us. Poor gret was sick yesturday.


Looks like trina and jol are wearing the same color cardigen hor? xinyi was damn high last nite. Even without alcohol. Haha


I love this pic the most!


The guy tat is flying off for 2 years...


jol, me and gret.


Met up with the volleyballers last sat @ brekos holland. This time with the guys. I've not seen most of the guys for really long. Its great to meet up with them and had a little chat with all. I realise the common topics now are "what r u doing now?" or "how's work?". We can't escape all these anymore. We're no longer students. i mean soon.... =)

the girls..


the guys & me. We make all guys to take with us.. individually. Hehe..


The group of us.


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Got the disc from alvin just 2 days ago. I love this song. Ya ya...i know its an emo song. But i just love it. Its kinda sad when u really listen carefully to the lyrics. =)

Finally let it out. No more misunderstandings and awkwardness (i hope). Its really encouraging to know that you are important isn't? Probably thats all you need to do to make one feel good, even after all the shit.

Yesturday, pastor Chui was sharing about encouragement. Its not about how God can encourage you, but more of how can u be an encouragement to someone else. While i was at the alter call, names just flashed across my head. Its easy to encourage when things are smooth or when the other party is in a worse state than you, but its really difficult to be an encouragement to someone when it doesn't benefit you at all, and probably by encouraging, you'll lose something important. Probably to some people, its pride. I cried so hard during the alter call, remembering all the occasions where i've been nasty to people around me, or i did not grasp the opportunity to be an encouragement and impact people's life. I really want to be someone to be used by God. I want to learn how to love generously. I did not hesitate to send out messages to people whom i think needs encouragement. Though some i still pull back, i hope one day i can really pluck up courage to send out those messages.

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