-SOME THOUGHTS-

Was talking to junyuan & Alvin just now at west coast mac. We have known each other for quite sometime... Anyway they are my seniors. I realise they have grown.. From shuqun till now... Hmm..Actually many of us have grown up. Wanting to settle down.. look for a gf/bf and work towards another part of our lives. Was quite surprise with junyuan agrees with me that parents blessing are important. We talked about the part where we were afraid of getting married in the future with the someone whom we don't love the most. Who can predict the future? Only God. I know even if i don't love him, God will make me love him... if i serve the Lord faithfully. God makes all things possible.

Didn't really study much today. Had breakfast and had a little chat with hongyi abt Christianity. I'm not someone who can bring out all sorts of bible verses to convince him, but i stick onto my own belief. I'm really glad that no matter what others say, i'll never weaver. Even during times when i feel lousy... when times i feel God is not helping me or even not being fair to me.. But i'll still stick onto Him. Faith... Trust... and Believe God will do all things.

Finance test was not so bad after few nites of studying. Its not easy for me to understand finance as i don't have the basics..not like my friends. I guess sometimes they are irritated when i keep bombing them with questions.. But they are still nice to teach me. =) Thank God for being with me today.... i still manage to read my bible these few days... thank God for the strength.

Somehow i'm lacking faith in certain part of my thoughts. I feel quite discouraged after the conversation with someone. But i believe God can do ways to move that person. If God opens another way, I'll follow.

Alot of my friends were complaining about not having a gf for sometime.. half a yr? 2 years? They mention loneliness. I may look cheerful, joyful but i cannot deny there are times when i will feel lonely.. Especially during rainy days. I cannot deny i miss the callings n chatting on the phone. Thats why i'll try many ways to make me busy or even go out with friends if i can so that i won't feel so lonely. Its not a good idea actually, but i'm still a human being.

I'm NOT desperate for a boyfriend. I believe the right timing and the right guy. Perhaps i miss the days where i have someone to "sa jiao" with... where i can make that someone smile because of me..

I'm getting tired..perhaps i should start doing my accounts before i head to church for the 8am service.

* j o y left her prints @ 5:45 AM