Its really really really...and I mean REALLY hard to live everyday without God. It seems like He is always there for you to pray to, there for you to lean on, there too when your heart is weary and pain. Its hard to continue to journey without Him.

I was reading sherrie's blog when she mentioned about her previous experience and how much she wanted God to take her home. It seems so real but it may sound silly too. Sometimes, i wanted it too....Especially when whole lot of things just happened to you, it may be something small, but it just hooked onto your emotions, mingled around and cause your mind to ponder and lead u astray. No matter how strong you are in the Lord, sometimes in a split second, if you don't know the way back, You'll just ended up to be just another victim.

It was a bad day for me. Facing the pressures from my dad, pressures from school work. Must all these keep repeating till i graduate? Sometimes i just want to give up. Why isst so hard for him to understand how i feel, what i wan... One like that, the other also like that.... give me a break!

Anyway, heck. I was studying yesturday when i saw wenhong at west coast mac. Its been years...i think after secondary school. I haven been seeing him. Anyway he looked the same and amazingly, he is studying at SIM. UOW. Chatted for awhile before i headed back to study. Sometimes its the study period, that makes me feel more relax. It sounded crazy as i told my friends i enjoy exam period, cuz i know after my papers, I'll need to go back to work again.

Its just part of life. Trials and temptation makes us grow stronger everyday. I believe i will....

* j o y left her prints @ 2:13 PM