James 1 : 2-4
"Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith developes perserverance. Perserverence must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything."

I was badly affected 1 hour before G12 tonight. I feel sad...empty. Feeling real down and really having doubts about myself. Am i doing something silly... doing something which will not bear fruits in the end? I even question myself.. Should i stop doing all these, stop praying?

I enter matthew's house with a heavy heart. Wanting God to touch me. Indeed the message was just right for me. I feel weary... Tired about the things around me as i feel nothing has been changed. Even if i pray.. Things didn't turn out well. Am i to perservere on?

Endure Bee... I need to endure till the end. Though i may not see the big picture right now, its a test of patience. There are times where u can tell yourself "endure, you can do it." But when things start to drag.. weeks after weeks, months after months, its really difficult for you to move on. Its just so taxing and tired because of the progress. Its just like paying for your insurance every month when you do not know what is prepared at the end of the period.

I feel much better. Will continue to move on in my life... Praying.... Exams are near... Will start studying soon. =)

Had fun yesturday with junyuan and alvin k-ing. Haven't been singing with them for a long time.. But they are still jokers. I just can't stop laughing... Guess they work till siao already... Rubbish all the way.

Will having a class gathering this friday. Sqs-4C gathering. But there are always people from other classes. But we are still close though...Heh... Looking forward.

* j o y left her prints @ 9:49 PM