Just 1.5hrs of sleep before going to church. I force myself to wake up.. However, i'm glad i did. I enjoy my way to church, blasting music in my car, enjoy the praise and worship, enjoying soaking myself with the word of God and later continue to enjoy my journey back home. Its been a long time since i had sometime for myself. Doing self reflection. But of course not advisable because I'm driving.

I was thinking about my own attitude. How i deal with my anger time after time, especially with my dad. I get aggitated very easily and will always think my dad is always wrong. I need to really look at how i treat my dad sometimes. Sometimes, anger and feeling upset always come together. Whether or not u feel more angry or upset, these 2 always come together.

Sometimes, we'll feel more on the upset side rather then angry. I guess this will be even harder to deal with our own emotions. I'm glad i'm feeling much better now. So what if i did not get my queries cleared, so what if i will never have a chance to ask why this happens, but i guess I'll be mature enough to handle my own emotions.

Can i separate "missing someone" from " being together with that someone"? Can i miss you and do not wish to meet u? Some kind of contradiction. If i manage to do this, perhaps my heart will no longer be the same already. I was talking to hongyi and he enlighten me with some points which i know i can never depend on them. Because it is from him. Haha... anyway i still appreciate those talks with him.

Need some sleep.....

* j o y left her prints @ 11:58 PM