Caught Borne Ultimatum in the evening with cindiie, chinying and hongyi. It really helps by watching the first 2 episode before watching this. At least i understands the story better. Didn't really attend LM today as half of the time i was at the performance area listening to the contestants singing. We do have people who can really sing man...Their voices are powerful!

Went G12 before meeting cindiie and hongyi again for supper. I realise i don't really eat during supper anymore. I jus drink or have little bites. Haiz..think i'm gaining weight. I need to get back to my diet real soon! HmMm... Ya had quite a long talk with hongyi before going back home. Sometimes i really thank God for hongyi. I don't have alot of friends now that i can really relate too. I remember i use to have doyle, whom was my really good friend. But somehow things have changed now and we're no longer close. I still misses the times when i do have a really good friend to talk to. Yes.....occassionally i have sherrie, huiyee or any close girl friends.. But they are really busy and we don't usually pop certain topics up when we were chatting. It takes time, the right place and the right time to really bring things up to talk about. Yes, i won't bring up spiritual stuffs to talk about when i'm with him, but at least, some other matters, i do have a listening ear, even though through short distance like from the bus stop to school, random topics are being brought up and slowly it goes on and on.

I remember spending lots of time talking to doyle too before being comfortable to tell him some of my personal stuffs. I'm still comfortable with sherrie or huiyee when we have the one to one talk, but i don't see them often. And i realise i need to talk, tell them how i feel in order to change what i think its not right about myself. Its also good to have someone reminding you or supporting you when you are really down.

I know its not the "godly" kind of friend, but i still thank God for a friend like hongyi. Of course, i thank God for slowly increasing my circle of friends in school and also the girls that i can hang out such as cindiie and chinying though i don't know them for a long time.

I really miss talking to someone, miss having a close friend. Though all along, i was hoping that the person i can really relate to is him, but i realise having a close friend that you can talk to, complain to is also very important. Now, like what cindiie say, though i may be like her, don't know what i want, but i have to be sure about what i don't want. I really do hope i can do it. And of course, i want something that is the best for me. And this can only be done when i focus my attention to no one else but to my Lord Jesus Christ.

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