The email somehow affected me. It seems like my hopes are gone. Maybe hongyi is right. I shouldn't anticipate it so much.

I didn't want it to affect me cuz i told God that it needs to be His will, no matter how much i wish this "hope" of mine will come to pass or not. Because i know i won't be happy if it issn't God's will.

There will be a 2nd chance. However, it doesn't depend on my decision alone.

* j o y left her prints @ 5:31 AM