Good morning! God is good issn't? Its good to have His word in the morning before starting work. I'm blessed. Truely blessed.

Couple of days ago, I was searching for something which lead me across a big box which i contain all my letters and cards. Knowing what is inside, i still open up the box. There is the white Christmas TY bear lying in it. It is still white as snow. I've never taken that bear out. Besides that, the round candles are still new. Well, i believe that small bottle of love seeds is still inside however i dared not look further. Out of curiousity again, i read one of the letters. It was in a white hallmark envelope with a 40cents stamp on it. Stupid of me to do that issn't? My heart sank once again, reading the letter and i realise perhaps all along i had lead myself into this mess. It is not a total "2-way-thing". It hurts though.. But i still can't help to be soft. Why? Is there a purpose?

I miss the happy times during Christmas. Somehow everything has changed. Things have became awkward. I don't want it to be like that. But still, I'm still praying. This is not my priority anymore. I just pray for the best Christmas gift this year. I just wish for one and only gift from God this year.

My brother is enlisting on the 14 Jan 2008. Poor eric... hahaz... Anyway its a good training for him. It will be tough though, cuz he is VERY pampered by us.



* j o y left her prints @ 9:49 AM