We were rushing and i forgot to call jaecia as i told her i'll be going over to say hi. Well, it was really packed at St james and its nice of xiaoli to bring us all in. At least we manage to squeeze into the crowd before 12 and countdown with the people. When the clock strike 12, 4 of us hug together and wish each other happy new year.

Its the 1st time i spend my new year eve without him. 1st countdown with the girls, 1st nite out with the girls. Though i thought i would not enjoy myself, but i thank God for taking the pain away even before meeting them. Manage to find ourselves a more comfortable spot (all thanks to wenjie). But what happen last nite was real funny. Thinking that xinyi and her friend wouldn't like the songs at dragonfly and thought of swarping to modiva, end up we were there till closing and i'm glad all of us enjoyed ourselves. More photos to upload once i get them...

Jaecia was super angry but thank God she is ok now. Met some shuqun peeps there too. Michelle, huishan, chinguan, ying qing and xiaoli. Thanks for the hug. As much as i wanted to hide, but my heart was soften once again when the hug came. It hurts me to see people around me hurting and it will remind me of the hurting moments that i'll need to go through. But as a consoler rather than being consoled, i have no choice but to hide them all in me. It pains me to see u tear, but please be strong okay? Because we all need to be strong.

As usual, I'll be the most sober one to witness everything. Protecting those "high" ones were automatically my job. Well, thank God for wenjie too for helping me to protect my girls. You'll tend to see all sorts of ppl in the clubs don't you? Haha...

I'm perfectly okay. Don't worry. Its another setback but i'll overcome it. 是我想太多。我还以为虽然我们不能在一起，你的心还是属于我的。可能一之以来你有努力过，但现在已经有人取代了我，你也不必再努力了。反而是我得努力忘记你。我们一开始不是朋友，结束后也不可能是朋友。也许有些人会觉得我不一样，不像原来的我，但是我没事。我是人，也许我也许要发泄的时候吧！这个创伤会留下疤痕，一辈子也抹去不掉的痕迹。