Went shopping with ruth just now. Was walking around far east throughout and now my legs are aching. Well done. Start shopping at 2.30 and we left far east at 9! This is what i call "girls power"!

Took the train home. Ya, that girl ditch me off and went to hitch a ride from her friend at amk. Its a long time since i took a train home myself. Was listening to my mp3 and looking at people. (well, you can call me kpo). Its always when im alone that all memories came back. Memories when i'm in poly, memories of talking to my boyfriend a few years back (living in our own world even when we're on the train), memories of two couples( jiahui and myself) taking train back to the west and many more..

While i was walking home from the train station, memories came flooded me once again. Especially during the cold days, i miss his presence, his voice, his warmth. Well, here i am thinking of him probably he is somewhere thinking of someone else. Thats y i hate walking back alone. But i miss doing my self-reflection cuz only when i'm alone, i could do self-reflection.

I was touched by Pastor Pang's message this morning. I was sitting there drinking in the word of God when it suddently hit on me, "When was the last time i was happy, really happy." I realise all these while i was happy due to some temporal tangible matters, yet i long for a happiness that is deeper than this. Then it struck me, the last time was 1 year ago, probably during the countdown 2007 when my smile was totally happiness from the depths of my heart. I was searching for something to replace this happiness all these while, finding things to do, going out for supper, driving out so i would not have so much time for myself and even during my own QT, i'm also rushing it through. You can be prayerless in your prayer life. It was after quite some time since i cried during alter call. I miss His presence, i miss His touch. I thank God for what He had spoken.

I need more train rides, more wallking home and more time for myself. Guess i won't b going malaysia this year. I've done with my shopping and i'm looking forward to new year. Mostly meet ups and i hope to see more people whom i seldom meet.

Work tomorrow.. And... shopping for groceries with my mum. I'm such a nice daughter. haha...

* j o y left her prints @ 11:56 PM