Went for the 1st exemplify last night. I have to admit that my spiritual life has been going down hill. I miss God's presence. I really do. My life has been full of activities, meet ups and work that i literally push God aside. I lost the desire to serve Him and will also find excuses to miss services. I don't want to. Today i was taught that God want all of us to be consistent. So what if I gave my life to God in the past, so what if I love God a lot in the past? But what about now? Have i been consistent towards Him? I really need to get on my knees to pray. I want back that personal relationship, that daily conversation that could keep me going.

My parents left again this evening to china. Home so far so good. I've been controlling my emotions recently as i know sometimes i do get overbroad. I'll get angry very easily and i don't know why. Haiz... I should pray about it.

Guess its hard for me 2 get a job this holiday. And this means i have to stay in the company. The results will be out next week. If everything goes on smoothly, it will be my last semester. *pray hard*

Celebrated the brothers birthday last saturday. As i've expected, it would be awkward. But overall its still alright. I won't want to escape from my feelings. Sad means sad, uncomfortable means uncomfortable. I won't go round saying i'm alright. The fact that i still feel something when i see him. But i also know this has to go. I'm cool and calm. A pinch of jealousy.. But hongyi is right. He won't even bother.




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