I wanted to blog about this since sunday. Yet, i do not have the courage because i don't know if i can do it. Sunday's sermon wasn't about forgiveness, but it somehow link to it and i have this strong feeling, that i need to forgive. Forgive that someone that i thought i did not bear a grudge on.

I finally realised that if i don't forgive him, i won't be able to walk out of this shit. If i don't forgive, i won't be able to move on. But what can i do? Besides asking God for help.

I've been trying for the past few months... Trying very hard. I feel ok when i gets busy..but i know its not the right way. I'm not healing..but rather let busyness numb my feelings.

Yet, at the a positive side, I thank God for what has happen. I learned more.. I learned to be stronger.. And i've learned to see the other side of man.

Its not a coincidence that i'll get to dream of him last night.

A last bye to him. Forever.



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