Just got home from celebrating the boys birthday. Boi, edwin and mike. I should be sleeping now...but perhaps i've just got something to say about this special day.

As usual, i enjoyed thoroughly. From 11 to 5. We sang our hearts out and everyone (i suppose) had fun. Be it singing or dancing. I guess when one gets really high, one will feel rather emo. Well well well.. i was fine till everyone in the room starts to get emo. I almost cried when i hug cindiie. Yup.. I did not drink at all.. But i could feel the tense and how cindiie feels.

The unwanted, the brotherhood among the guys, the shit feeling. All the boys probably get so used to the closeness and did not even bother to be sensitive to our feelings... TILL we showed them. Many times the "niceness" are taken for granted and treat it as "it-is-suppose-to-be-like-tat". Sometimes when we just got so pissed off, then they will crawl back and give us a hug. What for!! seriously, if you really do care and be more sensitive, you wouldn't even make that mistake in the first place, RIGHT? Are we thinking too much? Everyone is treating the girls as their brothers already. Though sometimes when you see us on the streets, people may think we are as close as a couple. Yup. Just because we are too close. Cindiie and I might even know the darkest secrets of them that even their gfs won't know.

We do have fun hanging out with the boys. Not pointing fingers at them, but i believe we girls too want someone to be there to love and care for us. We just want to feel special sometimes. Not only we don't get the special treatment, sometimes we are treated like shit. I'm sorry if its sounded too harsh/strong. I figured that we shouldn't be so nice to them after all. As much as how i noe i am soft hearted (yes, cindiie you are right), but we ought to give those guys out there a lesson.

Not denying there are some good times, and the lovin' times. I don't want to judge them. Give them the benefit of doubt. However, i just don't want me and my girls to suffer and always sparing a thought for them and not be appreciated. I hope they can prove me wrong. I do hope i'm wrong. =)

Happy Birthday Mike, Edwin and Boi.

* j o y left her prints @ 7:02 AM