During alter call, i was reflecting my life and thinking how much have i done as a person, fulfilling my responsibility of a person. Have i been living a meaningful life. Reflecting back, i feel everything seems so vulnerable, so meaningless.

I pray that God open new doors of opportunity, for me to impact people's life once again. As a sister, i always think i'm right. Reprimanded my brother for the silly decisions he made. From young, i wanted to help out in homes and do voluntary work but no actions taken. Now he is ahead of me. I feel so shameful.. I want back the drive, the heart for people once again.

Cosmic gate was good. Germaine and tim was quite sian as the music was quite progressive initially. Towards the end was good. Weiliang was there with us too! celebrated des's birthday yesturday. It was a big grp. Totally expected what happened last nite. But still......

Really hate myself sometimes. For no reason, i'll be emo. I guess its internal. I need to handle it myself.

Leaving in a few days time... Meeting jaecia and weixiong later... Others probably will meet them after i'm back from taiwan. =)

* j o y left her prints @ 2:33 PM